This type of blog post isn’t my normal thing, so bear with me if you’re actually reading this. This will be the first in a little series I’m calling “New Year, New Race”
This year (2015) has brought with it a lot of change for our family. At the very end of last year we experienced the birth of our second child, we left a ministry that we have given our heart and soul to for the past 10 years, Bryan started at a new job in a new field, and we moved to a new city in the midst of birthdays and Christmas and New Years. All of that is MORE than enough to cause a bit of stress on a person.
I must say that I believe we’ve handled all of the craziness fairly well, though of course we’ve had our moments. In the middle of everything, though, it became clear to me that a few other things needed to change for me, personally. I don’t know if it has to do with working in ministry, or marriage, or having children, or what, but when you are so focused on everyone around you and their well-being, your own falls to the wayside. Or at least, that is true in my case. I have always enjoyed living a healthy, active lifestyle and taking care of my body through exercise. And despite my picky childhood years, I really enjoy eating well and nutritionally. Somewhere in the midst of pregnancy, parenthood, work, and stress, those things became pretty much non-existant in my life.
What I didn’t realize what how deeply the lack of good health was affecting me. Not only physically, but spiritually, mentally, emotionally – every aspect of myself. A serious mind/body/soul type thing. I didn’t realize it until I made a change. A dear, dear friend of mine invited me to come alongside her in an effort to live an overall healthy lifestyle. Because of how much I love and look up to her, I said yes thinking hey, this’ll be a great way to lose the baby weight. What I’ve received from this experience has given me SO. MUCH. MORE. And I’m literally only 3 weeks into it.
What I want is for this to not be a fad thing, but a real, true lifestyle change. I have proved to myself in the last few weeks that it is possible, and I am seriously floored by the results I have seen in such a short amount of time. Again, not purely physical results, but in my overall health – mind, body, soul. But the amazing thing is that the physical results are there too, and for me they are a visual, tangible, REAL picture of what is going on in my heart.
My goal in putting this all out there on the blog is that it would keep me accountable. To commit to something publicly is super scary… it means people will be watching you. I guess I want that. I’m someone who suffers from what I consider a chronic fear of failure. This fear causes me to wimp out of things before I even try, to save myself the humiliation of not following through. This is something I want to change, so here we go on the first step in that direction.
Would you do me a favor? The thing with blogs is that you don’t really know who all is reading them, and you can convince yourself that nobody is actually reading it. That’s a little scary. But if you are reading this, will you leave a comment and let me know? Yes, even you, Dad 😉 If I know that there are people out there who are going to follow along with me in this, I hope it will help me to feel a little more motivated. And hey, maybe it can even help motivate somebody out there in cyber space to make a change in their life as well.
More to come!!!